Random Jules thought of your days.....

Lately I have wondered.......why I care so much about everything. Why do I care about anything? I dont really understand myself or how to deal with many things. Im like a lost and falling leaf among all of these branches and leaves on the tree of life.--Every leaf is going to fall eventually......but almost all of them fall alone. So who do I turn to?? Me. But how to I turn to that important source if I dont even know her is the real agenda. Man, life can be so shitty. And ironically among all of the shittiness, there is some sort of meaning, hidden possibly, but there. And also that no matter how screwed up a situation may seem, SOME good will come from it. Im learning all of this the hard way. But a good example of this wierd phenomenon is that my books of poems has been missing for quite some time now. Ive made some of my best and passionate poems in this book. But I am now convinced that it is better that I dont have it. Because maybe I am holding onto that anger and all of that frustration through those poems....and having them all of the time, may be like an unrelased emotion. I just need to forgive and forget those poems and why they were written. Move on. See? Higher meaning. Haha. Aint life funny.

There is so much more that I would like to say--- But cant.


Maybe someday this blockade in my throat and emotions will some apart.....or maybe it will just bust open. Watch out.


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be rAnDoM. make someone's day. don't smoke too much and stay atsray.